My Guilty Pleasure

Yeah, sounds pretty dirty, huh?

Some of you know this already so it will kinda be a repeat…maybe someday I will tell the whole story but here’s some of it.

I’ve got this whole life I lead that is all corporate (sorta) and “normal”. I work 40-60 hours a week, I own a house and a car…well, two houses a van and a car but who’s counting…and I’m as “ordinary” as everyone else. I live on a golf course (ewww….what an awful idea by the way) and I like to grocery shop and cook.

But, if money were no object, I would travel all over to see my favorite bands play. I’ve been a lot of places to see concerts. Really I have. McAllen TX. Grand Rapids MI. Some odd place in Minnesota. Kenosha WI. Erie PA. Old Orchard Beach, ME. Phoenix AZ. Las Vegas. Los Angeles. Sacramento.

So…yeah, that’s kinda where this story is going. I have a lot of bands I like, and I’d go see most of them anywhere but somehow, I always come back “home” to Tesla. I can’t describe it. And, I admit I’ve had a soft spot for Tesla for more years than I care to say.

When Jim came to “visit” 7 or 8 years ago, I was already “street-teaming” the only Charleston show I’d ever seen them do. I told him about it and asked if he liked Tesla and he was lukewarm. Yeah. Go figure. I just knew if I bided my time, he would learn how fantastic they are. Now he’s got a Tesla tattoo (I don’t even have one of those!!) and he’s out in Sacramento hanging out with some of the best people I know that I’ve never met…my Tesla friends. Our Tesla friends.

A long time ago, on a message board far far away, a handful of Tesla fans said it…and we say it still. Tesla fans are the best people we know. We love the band, and most of the time, we love the other fans that love the band (hey, even the most functional family is slightly dysfunctional, right?)

I’ve got friends that I only know because of Tesla, but I’d like ’em anyway…some are lifelong friends that I see on a regular basis (Spark) and occasional basis (Wanda & Rhonda, Shane, Steph) and some I have still never met…you know who you are. We share our lives outside of just that “guilty pleasure” of rock ‘n roll.

Oh. Story. Once, a few years back, I was informed that I needed to stop listening to “that rock ‘n roll” and listen to Christian music because I was now entrenched in a deep relationship with Jesus Christ. For a bit, it totally vexed me because I am really not ME without that rock ‘n roll blood coursing through my veins. A very wise friend told me that God made me, and made me to be who I am…and that my love of rock ‘n roll was ME. And that’s okay.

So, getting a shout out from Jeff Keith on Facebook live (thank you Jeff Loux) may be a guilty pleasure…I’m proud to say I love my rock n’ roll guilty pleasures. Seriously.



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So I have begun wondering over the past few years about when the view of our personal future changes. In other words, when do you make that switch from “upwardly mobile” to “hanging on ’til the end”? And how do you deal with that?

My life and career has centered around the company I work for (poor sentence structure, sorry)…for many years. Let’s just use an ambiguous term of “many” here. And I am frequently asked where I see myself in __ years. I may be short-sighted, or just complacent but I don’t have that vision anymore. I used to struggle with the answer because I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up. Now I struggle because I see retirement in my future and I’m gonna guess that’s not the answer most forward-thinking companies look for.

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t have any intention of slowing to a crawl as my “days are numbered” or shelving projects because I have lost interest. I love what I do. It’s challenging and exciting. Most days it’s not depressing to go to work (although it is increasingly difficult to get UP for work). I love writing, and I love my co-workers, and I love the industry we work with. I do feel strongly about education and I believe in the power of a nonprofit organization to change the world. I think that the little bit I contribute to my company’s success is an important little bit because if you’re not learning, you’re not alive. So, I don’t think that I’m winding down…not at all.

I do worry, though, because I see myself sitting here (or in a slightly nicer version of my office as it stands now) working for the same company, learning more about the business we are in and learning more about my craft. I don’t see myself climbing a corporate ladder or reaching to be a manager or a director, or a vice president. I don’t see that.

Funny…as I typed that last sentence I realized I’ve been a president of a “corporation” for a few years and I walked away from that drained and beaten down…my own fault, I know but it happened and it was real so…

What do you think? Where are you in your corporate cycle or just career cycle? Do you look UP the ladder, laterally, or down? When you’re asked those ever-painful questions of “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?” are you able to pinpoint a place and reply? Maybe I am just waiting to see what I’ll be when I grow up…if I grow up.


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I think that will be my next dog’s name.

A long time ago…let’s say at least 30 years ago…my mom had this book SOMEWHERE that showed all the tartans registered in Scotland. And I used to love looking at it because I’m a sucker for plaid. I had a kilt as a kid that I totally loved. No clue what happened to it but at some point kilts went out of fashion, and then (surprisingly enough) came back into fashion. And, I believe that was around my high school years. I somehow convinced my mom that I needed another kilt. I’m wondering where that sucker is right now…is it still hanging in my closet in Summerville?

Anyway, the point of this wasn’t so much about the kilt but the book. I can see it in my minds eye. Page after page after page of tartan plaid. Dad always liked Black Watch. I was more fond of the reds, russets, and purples (again…SHOCKING). I think I knew I was part Scottish. But, I totally couldn’t remember which last name in my mom’s heritage was the Scottish last name.

Did you know that the tartan book is now an ONLINE thing? Yet again….SHOCKING…Google search tartan and  you’ll see there’s a tartan registry. So what did I do? I started entering family names from my mom’s side…the ones I knew. Well, I admit, I really knew that Curtis was the French Canadian, so I had to go with my nana’s maiden name. Elliott.



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Meltdown in….

So, I had two brief meltdowns today. Might just be the pressure of um…life, or…life in general. If I were a drinking sort, I would be trashed right about now.

Maybe you’ve had a day like I had today before. Looking back at it, I don’t see one particular event that caused tears or raging, however both happened today.

Was it having to speak with a person at the insurance company?  Well, no. She was all together pretty nice. But completely unable to help me. Was it that I can’t seem to fill out a request form correctly to save my life? Maybe. But probably not. Was it that in the midst of probably one of the most emotionally traumatic points in my life, I’ve had to stand on my head and spit quarters just to “get at” something that by all rights is mine to have, but impossible to actually get? Yeah…that could be it.
And much of the rest of the day was uneventful. Except the now-traditional having to act like the adult in the house again. I hate adulting.

Until this evening when I was just trying to wind down from the over-woundness of the day…and that one person whose voice you JUST DIDN’T NEED TO HEAR called. Yup. Of course she did. I might have been a bit blunt when I cut her off and hung up on her. I might have felt a teeny bit of remorse until I consulted with the family and received the spiritual pat on the back I needed. I guess it was the wrong day to be THAT person calling here. 

The ensuing verbal tirade trying to purge myself of all the pent up frustration of the day was maybe a bit much. Sometimes ya just gotta blow off steam.

And….the day ends with a shower, some relaxing Facebook posts, and maybe a glass of water. Stick a fork in me. I’m done. Can’t wait for the upcoming Tropical Storm Hermine. Yay.

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Mushroom Almond “Fried” Rice

I have a renewed desire to make fresh, veggie-rich, fiber-laden dishes lately. Today, while thinking I was gonna make a mushroom-spinach-feta omelette for dinner, I realized I might have just a little too much in the omelette. Therefore, I decided to use up the brown rice from Thursday night with my sautéd mushrooms, onion, and garlic. This may be a no-brainer but here’s what I did.

1 small sweet onion (Vidalia if in season)

1 large clove garlic

8 oz mushrooms (any kind)

Olive oil or olive oil spray

1 cup left over rice

1 tbsp chopped almonds

Chop the onions and garlic together and sauté in olive oil or spray about 5 min until slightly soft. Chop the mushrooms into bite-sized pieces and sauté until soft. Add the rice and saute until completely warmed through and slightly crispy. Toss the almonds in and cook for about 5 minutes. Season to taste.

Serve with a protein or as a main course.

If you try this, let me know how you like it.

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Binge Watching?

imgdragonfly-in-amber1I have to admit to binge watching stuff in the past. Like Sons of Anarchy. Or Fuller House. Or Gilmore Girls. Or Royal Pains. Or Last Man Standing. Okay. I’ve binge watched a lot. Now-a-days, I’ve found a better thing than mindless TVing…Kindling. Yes, that’s my new term (use it if you want) for binge reading using my Kindle. And, it seems I’m stuck on reading Outlander. Every one of the books. It’s been 4 weeks and I’ve read 3 of them (yeah, that’s not ripping thru them at lightning speed but some other stuff is going on right now that I’m not going to get into).

I had read at least the first 3 books about 10 years ago then leant my copies to someone…at some point….

About a year ago, Amazon had the entire series (except, I believe, the most recent volume) on sale for some ungodly price like $6.99…I think there were 7 books…

So, I have these books. And I’m reading them. Much to the chagrin of Jim. Well, not really but sorta. It’s a nice diversion – books instead of Facebook. I like it.

Don’t mind me. I’ll be over there, with my Kindle. Kindling…the Outlander series. Yup.

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It’s All About Love

When I think of these tragedies that besiege us, I am reminded of Matthew 28, where we are commanded to make disciples of all, teaching what Jesus commanded. He commanded we love one another. I don’t know much about other religious mantras however, since My God is a God of love, I find it hard to believe in any “God” that directs his believers to kill. Even the Christian holy wars (for those of you gearing up to blast me) were not directed by God Almighty, but man. The new covenant with us, a sinful people, was that we have been washed clean by the Blood of The Lamb and therefore we shall no longer die but live on in Heaven along with the saints who have gone before us.

So, why does God make these heinous things happen? He DOESN’T. See, there’s this thing called free will. We have the ability to choose to follow God Almighty, the God of Love or “the other team” as Jim calls it. The other team may be Satan, or may be some other diety that is not a loving diety.

I’m not well-versed in other religions so I single no one out specifically. And, I am aware that as with Christianity, there are many “flavors”. Most Christian flavors believe in that all-loving God of Grace.

So, here I am rambling on about God (oh, Mary….AGAIN?) and praying that those affected by violence….those mourning a loss….those fearing society is doomed and with it so are we….I ramble on in a way of processing the continual  (pardon my French) shit-ifying of this world we were given to take care of….we should be preserving the environment, caring for all creatures, and loving/helping one another. Yet we are doing none of the above.

I’m going back to praying for peace. I am praying that animals, children,  and those who cannot care for themselves are cared for. I am also praying that the future holds some sort of hope. That’s just the way I am.


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Colorado Rocky Mountain High


No, not what you think.

This was an amazing trip. If for no other reason that I met four people I have “known” online, but had never met before (Shawna, I am saying this before we meet, but that’s happening in the morning.) And it was amazing. Ah-maze-ing.

But then I got to do a 5k (almost) and drive to the summit of Pike’s Peak (almost)….Lisa understands.

I saw some of the most amazing scenery I have ever seen. I was awed to tears several times.  I loved the breathtaking views of the majesty of God’s creation and I want to come back here with Jim because it is a really cool place.

Now I have to do the maniacal race back to Denver International Airport tomorrow so I can make it home to my love.

Whirlwind. Awe-inspiring. This trip was all that and more.

Picture is Pike’s Peak and Mike, Lisa’s car.

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A Tale of Two Tesla Friends

I started to write this last night but fell asleep.

I had the opportunity to meet some people yesterday that I have know for a while have never met in person.

Cindy and I had lunch and then she had a great idea to go see Red Rocks. Of course it was amazing. The ride out to Red Rocks was beautiful and the conversation was fun.

After I got back from Red Rocks. I got in my car and drove to Colorado Springs for dinner and to meet Lisa and Jeremy. This meeting was a year…well, actually fifteen years in the making. And, Lisa is the reason I’m here in Colorado to begin with.

My goal is to have pictures and stories from the Lung Force walk in Denver tomorrow so… stay tuned!

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Wow What A Day


So, this is my little way of journaling my trip to Denver for the Lungforce Walk and Broncos 5k with my friend Lisa.

Here’s the quick catch up. I’ve known Lisa for years. But by “known” I mean mostly as Peli…..short for her Tesla message board user name. We, as Facebook friends,  have gone back and forth about running a 5k together. Last year, she was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lung cancer. She is an amazing voice for lung cancer awareness and one of the strongest people I know. And this year….here I am in Denver…mere weeks after she has been found NED (No Evidence of Disease). Here I am.

So, I’m totally exhausted but wired. I’ve been up for around 15 hours…wait, maybe 16…and I am in bed watching Food Network. Yeah, my life is exciting.

****Can I also say that as excited as I am for this weekend, I miss Jim sumthin fierce.

And…..picture is the crazy big TV in my room.

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